Friday, October 23, 2009
Late Night Posting
Wells its quite late at night but somehow i just dont really feel like sleeping ... Past few weeks have generally been quite tiring ... I've realised that for me now , its no longer about wanting to do stuff or not wanting to do it but I feel I do it because i know i have to do it ... Somehow the thought about wanting to do it or not doesnt even cross my mind , I just do it ... Not too sure if its good or bad but thats something I have found to be different in me now ... Recently i've been thinking about the time when i 1st arrived in church , it has been a short period since then and at times i wonder if things has progressed a little fast ... Right now I'm growing and trying to expend and mature myself but at times as i look at myself i feel a little upset , somehow at times i feel like im not that awesome person whom people say i am ... There are times when i falter , times when i feel like im just sooo tired and times when i feel sooo dry and when people say im doing a great job at times i feel like i am letting them down alittle ... Is my thinking wierd ? ... Anyone that happens to read this pls feel free to reply me thx ... After some stuff that has happened im quite disappointed in myself ... hmms ... Continue , continuing ...
Jael got away at 1:52 AM.
Ian Jael.